Narcissistic Abuse Cycle Erodes Self-Worth and Identity
The narcissistic abuse cycle I endured from childhood left my mind shattered and fragmented in this battle of extremes.
The narcissistic abuse cycle erodes self-worth and identity through conflicting demands. This causes a relentless cycle of emotional chaos and psychological battles within the victim. The long-term repeated exposure to the narcissistic abuse cycle results in the curated identity of striving subservience.
Never perfect : Too flawed
Never enough : Too inadequate
Never worthy : Too undeserving
Never loveable : Too detestable
Too dependent : Too independent Too fat : Too thin
Too transparent : Too vague Too free-spirited : Too dutiful
Too conservative : Too revealing Too pessimistic : Too optimistic
Too young : Too old Too unreliable : Too dependable
Too happy : Too sad Too scrutinizing : Too trusting
Too loud : Too quiet Too imaginative : Too myopic
Too stable : Too poor Too somber : Too smiley
Too pretty : Too natural Too stubborn : Too flexible
Too talkative : Too anti-social Too judgmental : Too impartial
Too robotic : Too emotional Too guarded : Too vulnerable
Too introverted : Too gregarious Too impatient : Too patient
Too confident : Too meek Too rational : Too silly
Too finicky : Too haphazard Too adventurous : Too timid
Too boyish : Too girly Too active : Too lazy
Too curvy : Too unshapely Too compassionate : Too insensitive
Too needy : Too self-sufficient Too intelligent : Too naive
Too vulgar : Too prudish Too giving : Too selfish
Too slapdash : Too conscientious Too logical : Too fantastical
Too kind : Too inconsiderate Too intense : Too chill
Too organized : Too messy Too traditional : Too open-minded
I try so hard, but I'm still...bad
No matter what I do it's never right
Everything is always my fault
Everyone hates me, and I can't blame them
Just look at the list
There's no hope for someone as flawed as me
Please, I'm warning you
It's best to stay away from the likes of me
Can't you see all I'll do is cause you pain
It's all I ever do is fuck things up
Love, hell, not even like is meant for me
Never perfect : Too flawed
Never enough : Too inadequate
Never worthy : Too undeserving
Never loveable : Too detestable
I am so glad I didn't give up, and I kept trying to understand how to break free and unravel the lies of my narcissistic abusers! The road of recovery was not easy nor quick. For those who grew up with narcissistic parents, like me, the lies, emotional and mental trauma begins at birth. You're raised in a state of dysregulation, your nervous system and thought patterns are constantly in a state of hyper-vigilance to be attune to their fluctuating expectations, but no matter what you do, you'll never be correct. Narcissistic abuse erodes self-worth and identity through conflicting demands. The narcissistic abuse cycle causes relentless emotional chaos and psychological battles within the victim. The long-term repeated exposure results in the curated identity of striving subservience. Once in a while, they reward you with getting close to getting something "correct. Rest assured, with the narcissistic abuse cycle there will always be a "but" that tears you right back down to that place of not being "good enough". The manipulative "art" of minimization and passive-aggressive and backhanded compliments corrupt even your fractions of hope.
BUT, and I mean a massive BUT! I'm here to tell you that true, permanent recovery is absolutely possible from the narcissistic abuse cycle. It requires dedication, determination, and facing some very uncomfortable thoughts, behaviors and emotions - the unraveling, undoing of these can very much feel like you're losing your mind at times. And, in a way, you very much are losing your mind because you're undoing the lies you were programmed to believe as your identity. The longer your exposure and the younger your exposure to the narcissistic abuse cycle begins, the longer the recovery because the grooming into a narcissist puppet has been conditioned, trained, brainwashed into the core operating system of your mind.
Breaking free from the narcissistic abuse cycle is a courageous step towards self-empowerment and healing. Mentoring sessions provide personalized support and strategies tailored to your unique situation. Reach out by filling out the contact form, and let's reclaim your personal power, unlock your limitless potential, and navigate the path of recovery together. You are absolutely worth it, deserving, and most of all you are not only loveable, you have a community that is here waiting to love you!
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